After years of silence I spoke..

I still remember the friendship we once had, you were understanding and I was mad..

… I did everything to show you my best, but I forgot – Imitation was the game I never learned so well..

.. We never met each other, but the promises we made – Forever we are friends, she said with great enthusiasm and care..

.. I said her the same, but words can’t describe emotions – So my emotions in words were emotionless..

.. We planned for the future, and told me I was the best..

… But little did I knew, she meant what she said..

.. Things got little difficult because of the surrounding in which I stayed..

.. A shy young boy, who barely spoke – Was in a friendship where he rarely knew…

.. She was angry because of what I did, Yes I had made a mistake reciting to the world what kind of friendship we had..

.. She said me about her feeling, in which she said: I have seen you before in my life, and fall for you the moment my eyes met..

.. It was strange altogether, when it was all of the sudden..

.. I was not prepared what to say..
It was hard for a young shy boy like me, to accept her proposal without meeting her face to face in the real world we live in..

Yes I have been wrong to take her for granted, or maybe because I, myself was lost in the confusions that surrounded..

It was not easy for her to say, but I broke her heart – was the word she utter in pain..

Her life was scattered, so was mine..
She expressed her emotion, but I tried to hide and fly..

.. She still think I am, what I was before four years ago in time..

..Today I messaged her wishing friendship day for the promises of forever we made..

But she busted out again, yelling at me..

Get out of my life, she shouted very high.. I read her emotions through what she typed..

I still ask myself, Why did I messaged her at the first place? And why didn’t she ignored me when she knew it was me..

She said, I am disturbing her life. But within my heart I have no such intentions to tear her life apart..

It was today I took the efforts, and she ended up saying.. Why don’t you leave me alone in my life, and stop hurting my present life..

I am speechless as I read her text, I choose not to reply anymore – It was just that I counted her as a friend..

But she thinks I am someone who disturbs her life, yet she chooses to reply with words that have hard emotions of life..

I felt rejected, but I now – I know my life..

I am no more that person, who takes people for granted and leave them alone forever in life..

But today I choose to step back, and break those bonds which do not serve my life..

¬¬ Mystery of my life…

— Abdul Gani Punjabi..

Author: Abdul Gani

In the world where everyone tries to fit into the label of "Normal" i try to fight against that "normal" to reach my own potential, And be my "Authentic Self". On my blog you will find, Water that soften the soil and helps it to grow fruitful plants... I am seed which gets into your soul and helps it find it's purpose and Destiny 😇

15 thoughts on “After years of silence I spoke..”

      1. nothing.. i meant does she got married or not, and your decision is right, its better for her .. that to stop messaging.. coz.. may be she had tried hard to forget you , and it may be much difficult for her , and now may be she had adjusted to the situation and just going , or just started to accept the scenario, and if u mssg her more , again it will be hard for her, or your memories will again came to her mind.. so its better to keep distance, and as u always say there is some reason,

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