Day: August 5, 2018

I still remember the friendship we once had, you were understanding and I was mad..

… I did everything to show you my best, but I forgot – Imitation was the game I never learned so well..

.. We never met each other, but the promises we made – Forever we are friends, she said with great enthusiasm and care..

.. I said her the same, but words can’t describe emotions – So my emotions in words were emotionless..

.. We planned for the future, and told me I was the best..

… But little did I knew, she meant what she said..

.. Things got little difficult because of the surrounding in which I stayed..

.. A shy young boy, who barely spoke – Was in a friendship where he rarely knew…

.. She was angry because of what I did, Yes I had made a mistake reciting to the world what kind of friendship we had..

.. She said me about her feeling, in which she said: I have seen you before in my life, and fall for you the moment my eyes met..

.. It was strange altogether, when it was all of the sudden..

.. I was not prepared what to say..
It was hard for a young shy boy like me, to accept her proposal without meeting her face to face in the real world we live in..

Yes I have been wrong to take her for granted, or maybe because I, myself was lost in the confusions that surrounded..

It was not easy for her to say, but I broke her heart – was the word she utter in pain..

Her life was scattered, so was mine..
She expressed her emotion, but I tried to hide and fly..

.. She still think I am, what I was before four years ago in time..

..Today I messaged her wishing friendship day for the promises of forever we made..

But she busted out again, yelling at me..

Get out of my life, she shouted very high.. I read her emotions through what she typed..

I still ask myself, Why did I messaged her at the first place? And why didn’t she ignored me when she knew it was me..

She said, I am disturbing her life. But within my heart I have no such intentions to tear her life apart..

It was today I took the efforts, and she ended up saying.. Why don’t you leave me alone in my life, and stop hurting my present life..

I am speechless as I read her text, I choose not to reply anymore – It was just that I counted her as a friend..

But she thinks I am someone who disturbs her life, yet she chooses to reply with words that have hard emotions of life..

I felt rejected, but I now – I know my life..

I am no more that person, who takes people for granted and leave them alone forever in life..

But today I choose to step back, and break those bonds which do not serve my life..

¬¬ Mystery of my life…

— Abdul Gani Punjabi..