Do you love me ? – “No” was my reply.

You deserve someone better than me my mind said deep inside.

Why are you lying, Just say Yes And hug her tight.

Why? Why did i had to lie? Fear – It was fear deep within that said “YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO MAKE SOMEONE HAPPY OUTSIDE”.. Fear ? where did it came from – yeah, the stories i read the post i met, All said the same – Love is a game so stay outside.

My feeling for her was different, I cared for her,conversed for hour and hour,Hugged her tight when i felt i may lose her sight..

Then why today, I said her “NO” when she met me at the Cafe for coffee time – she was very charming, gorgeous, beautiful but what i needed was that she would be “only” mine.

I didn’t like her talking with some other guys, she was the only girl who caught everyone’s sight, I hated it when she would lie – i am at home, but i would see her visiting restaurant with the person she said me to never go close by.

Why? I have been loyal all those days, and You broke my trust like an Ordinary guy, I feared to lose you, so i tried- but your attachment for them were more than towards “I”.

I saw your smile, I saw your cry – All those promises that means nothing once you have lied.

I still ask myself, how did the fear got in me “To lose someone special in my life”… It was my first love that i never shared with anyone even those that are very close by..

She was the most simplest girl i met in life, Her smile was Pure and her eyes like a star twinkling in the sky.

I was shy to tell her – my heart skips a beat when i see you even from far behind.. But it was late when i heard that she shifted to another country 7 oceans across that side..

Yes, I lied – I lied because I fear to lose you to someone who would love you more than “I”.

Yes was the Truth, No was the lie.

— Abdul Gani Punjabi