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Tick Tick

Memories from the past.

Tick Tick Tick Tick…..

That’s how the clock sounds, It being a long time since we have listened to this voice. We are so busy with our so called work that even when we are free we waste our time browsing videos on YouTube, Scrolling through Facebook pages, Twitter tweets etc. And at the end we have no time ~ Because we are busy.

Let me remind you of those days when we hardly knew what is a mobile Phone. Those were the days we actually lived, getting up early was a very difficult task, but when mummy is there why to fear? Our day began with seeing the face of our mom/dad. And then the voice “Wake up ~ Get out of the bathroom, And come fast for breakfast” everyone had heard those lines šŸ˜….

Those days, when we had breakfast together, sitting next to each other, not passing the water class that’s how we irritated each other, and the shouting in the house, that fighting that goes between two brother, and gossiping that moves from the neighbours to my mother. Those gathering where we had a chance to play a prank with another, those fightings for the remote to watch our cartoons instead of the serials of mothers.

Those days, when we used to stand in groups below the house of a friend and shout his name together. Those fights over a little matter that really never bothered, mood-off for a day and back again in the group of brothers. Those late-night meetings which really never had an agenda, but whatsoever. Sitting on their bikes and listening to the shouts of owners.

“Not out” ~ everyone remembers that, It was “OUT” but for us it was “NOT”, that’s how we fought for one more ball and than another.

That unity we showed when one of us got hit by another. We were ready to take their life, for hitting our brother from another mother.

Yes, This “Tick Tick” reminds me of all the fun we had, but today those days have vanished.

Now, As soon as our eyes open we look into the cell phone for the messages we have received, and the likes and comment we got. That’s how our days start now. No more breakfast together, no more “Fun” fights between brother and sister, no more friends to stand together, no more time to spend together.

Because we are the modern generation, that love iPhone more than our lungs and liver, spending time liking, commenting, sharing, watching, playing, online shopping, and doing everything but no more real feelings for each other.

“I wish the time we have now we can spend it together, or else the upcoming generation will be so busy with their mobile phones that for them even their parents won’t matter”

—- Abdul Gani Punjabi

Give up ~ They said

Doing what they wanted to do, they did everything to disturb him out. He sat there watching their actions, and even sometimes tried to stop them, But for them fun was more important, and disturbing a soul was the mission they decide.

Till today he thought the problem was with him, then suddenly one day he realized ~ he was not crazy at all but the people who resided beside.

Sometimes he think it’s better to quit and go to a place where he can find like-minded people. But then something stops him, “Do you really wanna grow and learn in life? then stay with people who are opposite to your mind”. But why did he thought this way. Because he knew very soon things were going to end and he would learn a lesson that will change his life.

Nowadays, people are so self-obsessed, that what they see is only their ownselves. They don’t care about the people who is sitting on the next side. Seems like their parents did not work well on them as a guide ~ or else their parents did the best for their children’s, but the children’s screwed-up themselves in life. They have numbed their feelings for other’s and always try to hurt the one who keeps quite.

But it does not mean you give up, because you have your character that will attract people of same kind, the people who really understand you will appear soon and you will keep watching their faces ~ thinking though life was difficult but always the one with a pure soul wins the heart of those who lost the guidance in their life.

Sometime we need to stand up for ourselves and try to fight ~ Or else it’s better to keep our peace of mind and let the people do whatever evil they plot and play in their mind.

— Abdul Gani Punjabi

A note to my Younger self.

I used to spend my Friday nights at parties and nightclubs. I would spend hours getting all dressed up, putting my makeup on and curling my hair. I craved the excitement of finally letting loose (i.e. getting intoxicated) just as much as I craved attention from men, because I thought attention meant popularity, beauty meant power and the attraction of men meant affection; love even.

Itā€™s silly, I knowā€¦

My thoughts, Iā€™ve learned, were notoriously inaccurateā€¦

I feel sorry for the woman I used to be. I donā€™t say that to be mean, or in a vindictive or judgmental way, I mean I truly feel sadness in my heart for her; for the pain she was feeling and the loneliness she felt inside. I wish I could reach out and hug her so tight she would have no choice but to believe she was lovable, and I would tell her she is enough. I wish I could tell her to take the make-up off and wear clothes she feels comfortable in and laugh at herself, because she is pretty hilarious when she isnā€™t trying so hard to impress people.

It makes sense to me now, the addiction, the empty relationships, the isolation. She just wanted to feel accepted, she wanted to fit in; to feel secure. But she hadnā€™t quite learned the importance of loving herself yet, and so she built a wall to keep people at a safe distance; never too close, but always too far.

Where she went wrong, was expecting something exterior to fill an interior void. She expected others to make her feel worthy, but it was others who made her feel neglected and taken advantage ofā€¦.who made her feel used. She didnā€™t know her worth, and because she didnā€™t value herself, she taught others to undervalue her too. She was wrongā€¦and it still hurts sometimes.

Her Friday nights look a lot different today. I look a lot differentā€¦

Today, I spend my Friday nights being of service to my community. I have exchanged parties for volunteer work; the chance to bring a little hope to other women who seem to have lost themselves along the way too.

Iā€™ve changed so muchā€¦.and although I have changed, I recognize that most of the world, and the people in it, have remained the same. This can be discouraging at times, but I refuse to let it break me.

I decided to write the ā€œold meā€ a letter and found it to be incredibly therapeutic. I admit I feel a sort of disconnect now, between who I was and who I am today. Itā€™s almost as if my younger self is a completely different person altogether; as if she is still lost out there somewhere, waiting to be found. I donā€™t ever want to be that lost little girl again, and so I continue to put in the work. I listen. I change. I grow.

While writing this letter, I envisioned myself sitting in front of the teenage me, gently taking her hands in mine while she rolled her eyes and let out an obnoxious sigh. I imagined myself lifting her chin so that our eyes met, and silently observing that single tear that always seems to slowly make its way down her cheek.

If I could, I would tell her that everything is going to be ok. I would tell her she will surprise herself someday; that she will inspire others to want to be better, give them hope and she will make herself so proud.

She wouldnā€™t believe me, but I would tell her anywayā€¦

If I could, I would tell her thisā€¦

1. Donā€™t compromise who you are for an idea of what someone else thinks you should be. Thereā€™s no requirement ANYWHERE that says you must conform in order to find acceptance. If it makes you feel icky, donā€™t do it. Trust your instincts! Be unique, be thoughtful, have the courage to be different.

2. Mean girls, though glamorous and popular on TV, are far from fabulous in real life. People will not remember how popular you were or what you wore, they will remember how you made them feel. BE KIND. Guilt and regret are difficult to live with, and just as difficult to let go of.

3. You are not fat! Seriously, STOP IT! Learn to appreciate your body now, otherwise it is going to be difficult to appreciate your appearance as an adult with a body forever changed by motherhood.

4. You are allowed to say NO! Sometimes it is necessary. Self-care is one of the most important things you can do for yourself and you do not have to apologize for it. You cannot please everyone, so at the end of the day make sure you are, at the very least, pleased with yourself.

5. Drugs and alcohol, though they seem like harmless fun when you are young, do not make you cool. No successful adult wishes they were an addict, and no addict wishes to continue a life in active addiction. Choose the right path while you still have the ability to choose, it is much harder to change that path in the future.

6. Life can be hard and often unfair, but it is also beautiful. Things will get tough and you may find yourself feeling heartbroken and lost, but those feelings wonā€™t last forever. Itā€™s the cycle of living a full life. There are ebbs and flows. Hold on tight and take a deep breath when things get difficult and donā€™t ever forget to be grateful when things are falling into place. Do not lose hope. Do not give up on yourself. Even the most tragic events have a lesson. Have an open mind, and you will never miss an opportunity to grow.

7. Do not let a man, ANY man, determine your self-worth. If a man is only interested in your physical appearance, he does not deserve your affection. Physical attraction does NOT equate to love, and believe me when I say that you do not need a boyfriend to complete you. You are already loved! Be patient! Wait for the person who embodies everything YOU love; Humor, loyalty and intelligence. Someday you will appreciate your husband for being not only your partner in love, but one of your best friends.

8. What other people say about you behind your back is NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. There are certain instances where ignorance is bliss. Do not seek out resentments. The opinions of others only define you if you let them. What matters is how you feel about yourself.

9. You will make mistakes. FORGIVE YOURSELF. Donā€™t be discouraged. Some of lifeā€™s best lessons will come from your biggest mistakes. Walking through the pain will only make you a stronger, more compassionate woman, sister, mother and friend. Never stop trying to be better than you were the day before.

10. If you are going to make an apology, mean it! Then take the necessary actions to change your behaviors. Apologies are nothing but words when the actions are repeated. The most honorable people are those who can admit when they have done something wrong, and then change their behavior.

11. Learn to accept the apology you never received. You cannot control the actions or opinions of others, and a forced apology is just as painful as no apology at all. Learn to let go and move on. In the end, staying angry will only hurt you.

12. Learn to laugh at yourself. Stop taking yourself so damn seriously! Laugh until your belly hurts, until you snort, until you have tears streaming down your face and then laugh some more! There is nothing that compares to the joy of laughter.

13. Do not compare how you feel on the inside to how other people appear on the outside. This one is important, so listen up! No one is perfect, it is NOT possible! Accept yourself, flaws and all. You will be blessed with a lifetime of happiness if you can succeed in this one task,

14. Be you! Authentically, unapologetically you! You are not meant to be anyone other than yourself! Embrace your imperfections! Embrace your flaws and your quirks!

–Originally Shared by ” Free to be V ”

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Believing In Miracles Of life …

When we look at others we see them happy, but what we don’t realise is ~ There was a pain and struggle which changed their life and gave them lessons which they needed the most.

Sitting on the sofa everyday and thinking will this ever end ? Staring at the empty Wall , Searching for Hope .. Why Me ? Why ? Asking this question again and again But have no Answer within .. After Staring at the Wall for whole night and crying for no reason . Why ? An answer i needed , Numbness in my body no effects or feeling But having a little Faith to move High .. Faith is what kept me going , they thought i was acting weird but i knew what was inside .. A mask i wore to show i was happy and fine But within was Discomfort telling me this was a lie .. It All started when “SHE” Died . stilling wondering Did she really died ? After 4 year in depression searching for guidance and a lot of confusing arising within Asking ” Is this only me – Or are there any ? Who can understand me ? ” .

But slowly as time passed i found myself in despair , feeling myself disconnected to my inner-voice . It tried to speak many time But it was me who never hear . Recalling Those night when no one heard my sound of cry .. It was deep seated fear to be myself again . Hope was lost So was I , Finding an Answer Outside . Lack of self-Stem , Confidence , And with A broken heart i tried .. But there was something that kept me going , A voice in stillness That said do not fear .. I AM HERE . That’s what kept me going . Found out the answer today And willing to Guide Others ..

Life Is just amazing . Just Connect with the NOW , that is here ..

I consider myself blessed as i faced my fear , It was Depression that bought me Near to here .. A Believing person never Fear because he knows that there is Someone Hearing The Sounds of Tear ….

Depression Was a blessing for me , I wan’t to inform all those Out there Depressed , Don’t fear Because now i am hear to listen to your fear .

On the Path to Enlightenment , There are ups and downs but the one who Trust and Have hope Along with Patience makes there Journey worth ..

Being Grateful is the Key to Start . I am Grateful to have those Depression period in my life .

— My true life – Abdul Gani Punjabi.